::BLoWiN' uP mY CeLL...

It's a little too late for excuses. He's just mad 'cause I caught him in his little game and he can't play or use me like he wanted to any longer. I'm starting the new year, right, without him. It feels good. I'm not hurt, though because I always knew what was going on, but now I just know for sure. I feel relieved. Now I can keep some money in my pocket and some gas in my car. I just want time to myself. To be single. To be free. To enjoy life and have some fun. No more BFs for me. I just wanna chill and find somebody to make-out with on occassion. LOL, ANYWAY... It's all good.

He won't leave me alone, though. He came to my job yesterday, and stayed there ALL DAY LONG. I'd see him every occasional 30 minutes, I was like "what the hell is he doing?" I didn't speak to him at all. I worked an eleven-hour shift yesterday, so you can tell how bad he wants this! Anyway, I left work to find a note in my door (on the back of a receipt.)

Hoping it would be an apology, but it wasn't. It was something like "Happy New Year!... Yeah, I know. But really I just need to get some things out of your car, so give me a call later. Keep in touch." and a little smiley face at the bottom. Is he for real? What am I just some random friend to him? Damn. Show some remorse.

My boss was getting frustrated cuz he was calling like every 5 minutes when he wasn't at the store. He was like "Who is this dude that keeps calling for you!? Jeez!...." I told them to take messages for all my calls. I was like "Unless it's my dad, mom, or an emergency, I don't want to speak with anyone." And they're like "What!?" So he calls, and calls, and calls. The very last call was about 9:45 and he tells them that it's an emergency. So she calls me over the intercom and is cracking up and is like "He says it's an emergency... I'm just gonna leave him on hold, okay? (lol)" I was like cool.

After that, I got like ten voicemails with "This is so fucked up that you're doing this to me, when I need you the most..." Yeah. I... uhh... did WHAT to WHO? He doesn't need me. He just wants what I have.

Then there's this morning. He's calling my cell phone and my house phone back to back, waking up everybody. My brother's back in town.

So, now I'm going to work early because I'm up and I may as well. I don't have anything better to do right now (cuz my time is usually devoted to him, so I don't know what to do lol). The only thing is, I'm almost positive he's going to be there when I get there. I don't know what to do. I told him that it's over and to give me my space, and he won't leave me alone!

He's screaming at me telling me I have an attitude and everything. He just needs to accept that he fucked up a good thing and can't really expect me to take him back. I don't want him back. I just want an apology, and he's turning it around on me as if I'm supposed to apologize to him. He won't confess his faults, and that's what is irritating the hell outta me.

Then on top of that, he's calling me from a blocked number today, and I'm almost positive that it's from the other dude's cell phone, which I really don't get... So...

HAPPY NEW YEAR! I'm off to work, so HOLLA. Pray for me. Lata.
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ALSO, I went to the doctor's yesterday. She pointed out my weight and I realized that I'd lost twelve pounds in two weeks! I was wondering why my work uniform was so loose. My dad saw me on Christmas and was like "Are you sick?" lol ANNNND I got evaluated at work yesterday and I got a 99/100! What?-What? Yeah, boy!... My boss wants to give me a promotion (also meaning a pay raise). He told me that I am one of the best that's ever worked for him. He told me to sleep on it and give his boss my decision. I just decided I'm going to accept! Doing big things for MYSELF in 2006. Peace.