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Once again, I've got all eyes on me at work.

It's not just because they all think I look good, but because everyone wants to know how I get down...

There's this bitch there that's been trying to "out" me all week. I don't know what her deal is, I hardly ever speak to her, and she's really been trying me. I've clashed with her in the past and I keep getting these constant looks, glances, and STARES from people and I'm like WTF are they looking at??


Now, I know why, and I know what they were thinking.

Everyone wants to know, and some are bold enough to ask me "Are you g-a-y?" And YES they even spelled it because they couldn't SAY it... jeez...

I thought this blew over like two months ago, but apparently not.

I don't really care to tell people because I KNOW most of them have seen me with my bf whenever he comes to see me or when he calls me at work, but please explain to me how the hell that's anybody else's business who comes to see me or calls me. They come to see me, or call me, not to be seen or heard from by anyone else.

I don't know why people make such an effort to be in your shit all the time. I'm like the nicest, most chill, laid back guy I know. No one has a problem with me, but now all of a sudden one person suspects that I'm gay and wants the whole world to know it, too.

If I wanted everyone to know, I'd tell them, but I don't know those people like that, therefore it's no one's business and should be of no concern.

Everyone watches me, I know, because all those hoes (and some of the dudes, too) can't stand the fact that I don't try to flirt with any of them.

Yes, I still effing like women, but:

1. I'm NOT single.
2. They're all fucking ugly.
3. I don't make my bed where I make my bread.

This all came about because this one girl was pretty much just throwing her pussy all up in my face, and was mad because I didn't try to hit that. So since I'm not attracted to her ugly-ass, I "must be gay..."

To me, that's a turn-off. Whenever someone (guy OR girl) is trying to get at you THAT BAD, and they're that bold and obvious about it--to me, that's a red flag to get your ass as far away as possible. If they're like that when you don't even know them that well, how should I expect them to be after getting to know them better...physically?

That's where more stress, more drama, and MORE bullshit comes from afterward -- involving yourself with people like that, and THAT is why I keep my distance.

I like something that's a little bit harder to get, something I have to work for -- a challenge. Not something as easy as these bitches I work with (and BITCH is an understatement for how I feel about them, and I am usually NOT a negative person... just a little pissed right now)...

ANYWAY, I'm SO annoyed, but trying to figure out how I should deal with this situation because it gets worse.

Not only are people constantly inquiring of my sexuality, but rumor has it this same bi-o-tch even told a few customers (I assume some chiks that were checking me out) that I'm gay, also.

So what should I do?? I really wanna raise hell but I've been holding my peace and ignoring it. I slipped up and told my bf about it and told him her name (cuz he asked), so idunno what he's gonna do either cuz he was kinda pissed.

I don't really care to tell people.. it's not a big deal to me. It's just that, I hardly know these people. I'd still be the same dude that they've always known, except they'd just know one more thing about me, but I really don't care to get to know ANY of them.

Now, naturally learning more about a person draws you closer to them, it doesn't change who they are, maybe just your perspective of them.

So, maybe that's why learning a person's sexual orientation creates a bigger distance between people. The fear of something different. But it's not like homosexuality is just some new thing... there's nothing new under the sun, so I don't know why people act so surprised all the damn time. Just open up your eyes and see me for my character, and not see the label you've tatooed across my forehead every time I walk in the room, cuz that's how I feel about people when they find out. That's the first thing they see, my sexuality...

Really, it's not even that big a part of my life, if that makes sense. I just happen to be with a dude right now... no biggie... that's just me, and what I prefer. Get over it.

It's like high school. She won't come and approach me, herself, about it. She just wants to spread the rumor and have other people come and talk to me. She sent some other chik over to tell me that she doesn't want me to take it the wrong way... How the hell can I NOT take that the wrong way when I NEVER talk to you and you even tell CUSTOMERS that I'm gay, what the hell? True as it may be, there's no reason to assume...

Whachu think?